WOW, 9 months ago I musta been like a crazy person. HAHA.
After sooo long, tryna get over you I did, but then one time, everything came rushing back, found out you got a girlfriend, I was a little sad about that, but I’m coping.
After May 09, I tried cutting off all ties with you. I graduated hs, did my own thing. But then I was hopeful when we started casually talking again in July 09 when we were both across the world (still in a diff country though) Well, I was the one who started sending you messages. Then I guess August 09 was when I gave up everything. Then I realized I just couldn’t give you up! You were such a big part of my life. You were probably the first I ever fell the hardest for. So then somehow I talked to you again in Sept 09. I think you made an effort to message me again ‘cause I decided to go back onto the IMing service we used to use.
Then Nov 2009 was when we really started talking again :))) Jan 2010, our friendship grew stronger, and we now have such an awesome circle of friends. Love em all. April 2010, I’m glad we both finally came out with our feelings for each other this past month, seriously :) Sorry that you thought I was gonna confess first when I said “so umm” randomly, outta the blue. I really wanted to tell you about my problems haha, just needed to let it out and tell someone.
Now reading back upon these posts, I sounded so stupid haha. But yeah, most of the stuff posted here is probably not even true (like how I wrote you don’t feel the same way - no mutual feelings) but I guess I was wrong! I’m so happy that we’re really good friends (again).
Right now, I don’t know how things are with your girlfriend, but don’t be so worked up about it since you told me it’s probably not gonna be a happy ending :( I’ll be here to talk and listen if you need me. Don’t ever forget!
Also we’re both going through tough times with family and everything, it’s good to know I’m not in this alone, same goes for you. We understand each other, and that’s what I love about you. When you call me ‘cause you can’t sleep, I’m sorry but idk what to do when you tell me to put you to sleep hahaha, that’s where I fail. But anyway, you’re awesome.
I believe the wait was worth it. Time tells everything. Here’s to hoping for a lifetime of friendship.
<3
